This time next year

On October 31, 2008 we thought "This time next year we'll have a 3 month old baby (God willing)." What a difference a year makes!

One year ago, I never changed a diaper. I maybe held 2 newborns for a combined time of 5 minutes. I had no idea babies need to sleep on their backs. Drool seriously grossed me out. I HATED pictures of babies with food on their face. I wondered if my baby would be scared that I don't know how to take care of him/her? What on earth do they even wear? The first trimester felt like a test I had to pass, then came the thrill of finding out the gender and then countdown to labor.

Now this is our lives! Drool is my new moisturizer and diapers are "no problem, mon." She's developing more every day. In a few months we'll see if i think pictures of Ellie with food on her face are cute. Then we'll KNOW I've completely changed.

3 months

Ellie turned 3 months old this week! She is getting to be such a big girl. She's traded in her love for the ceiling fan with her love of peek-a-boo. She smiles and laughs out loud when we make funny faces and sounds at her. Sadly, I haven't been taking too many pictures because 1. I'm too busy 2. Now she stops whatever cute she's doing to scowl at the camera. My 2nd week (but first FULL week) back to work was ok, but I'm soooo exhausted! The highlight was seeing JASON CASTRO perform in our cafe at work. Last night was my first night alone with Ellie. Scott had a sleep study at the hospital so I was on all night baby duty and she made me work for my pay. I was up with her until 1 AM and she only slept until 5 am. Tonight I'm also home alone as there was a boys poker night on the calender. I think I'm getting sick too. Booo. I am quite the disgruntled saint!

Goodbye good life

12 weeks ago, I thought my maternity leave would last forever. I clearly remember driving home on that last day of work ecstatic to meet my first born and excited for the time off. I mean, it was a whole quarter of a year! I would for sure have time to sort through drawers, organize closets, lose 40 lbs, and finally sort through those pictures from the last 10 years. Instead, I thought staring in awe at this was more worth my time!

Ellie now reaches out and looks at her own hand in awe. She's starting to put things in her mouth and interact more day by day. Sadly, she got her first cold 2 days into daycare and also stopped sleeping through the night just in time for me to really need her to sleep through the night. I am busier than ever trying to manage everything while being out of the house 50 hours per week. I have a whole new respect and heartache for working mothers! In the words of my compassionate husband "You're not the first woman to ever have to go back to work."
Peace out!